Who here has felt like they didn't fit in? Raise your hand.
Both of my hands are raised, like, super high. I have never really felt like I fit in. I'm weird. I'm a total dork. I like cartoons like Digimon and Transformers and TMNT. Smart equals sexy to me. But I also like tattoos. And big trucks. And fast cars. And cupcakes. And penguins.
I'm a stepmom. But I don't fit in with the other stepmoms because I don't have my own kids and don't want them. And I don't blame biomom for every single damn thing that's wrong in my life. I have a great relationship with my stepdaughter. I am pretty sure she likes me a lot.
I live in Utah but I'm not LDS. In fact, I'm totally and completely agnostic. I hate organized religion, especially the predominant religion in Utah, for the monsters it turns people into. There is nothing Christian about telling your kid that he cannot play with my kid because she doesn't "believe the same things". You can fuck right off.
I'm tall and sort of thin but I'm not athletic AT. ALL. I hate watching sports (with the exception of hockey) and hate playing them even more. I like to eat. Like, a lot. I'm an emotional eater, I'm a bored eater, I'm a craving eater. Food has the powerful ability to make me happy.
I am almost 30, married, financially stable, and do not want children. Most people in my situation are on kid two or three or, for some of the really crazy ones, five or six. I have zero desire to give birth to any children. I love my stepdaughter like she burst her way through my vagina, but I don't want to add any to the mix. I have never wanted kids. The older I get, the more that gets cemented in my head.
I am smart. I pick things up easily and I retain information fairly well. But I'm not nerdy. I don't spend my free time learning quantum physics or chemical biology or whatever. I love learning but it has to be on my terms. I hate school. I tried to do college and made it through a semester before I knew it wouldn't go anywhere for me.
I am a girl but not girly. I get my nails done and love to play with polish. But I hate shopping. I hate spending money. I hate sitting around and gossiping about other people. I am not trendy or fashion-forward because it bores me. I buy what I like and I wear what I like and could not care less about if someone else is going to approve.
I don't have a group that I fit into. I don't have friends that have been my friends since elementary school. I don't make friends easily.
But, at almost 30 years old, I think I've finally found my place. It might have taken me a bit longer than is typical, but I think I'm there. These people I make connections with online are people like me. People who don't fit into the typical molds. I finally feel like I can be myself and people will like me anyway. It's the raddest thing to encounter. I post pictures and people like them! I make comments and people respond. I don't even know how to explain it, but it's pretty awesome.